SO I had a dream last night about our big santa monica shoot on Monday.

I won’t call it a nightmare because I didn’t feel panicked or afraid (and my back wasn’t aching when I woke up).

But first thing, I broke my glasses in half. I stayed up all night while people were crammed into my messy little apartment, and when dawn came amazingly, someone had brought soft doughnuts so I didn’t have to. Which is great also because I had to go to the temple to pick up Kevin and Traci and I forgot to check to see if Emi was even going to MAKE it that day. I finally got everyone to the beach but the spot we picked was right near the pier and covered in grass, it was too slopped to do the dance which was almost fine because no one really knew it anyway. I think the five girls showed up but I think only two guys did. Children yelled at us for taking up so much beach space, and we couldn’t even seen the ocean. And we hadn’t even started filming yet.

…wow. This is gonna be a disaster.

YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT WENT ON IN THIS HOUSE TODAY?
Everything good. :)

I have to say, this weekend felt like a vacation to me. Aino came and stayed and even though I worry about the condition of my home and my ability to take care of her, she makes everything alright. We had FUN FUN FUN. we ran around, we watched PGSM act 0 and swooned over our favorite parts. We had Pizza and chatted about all things good. The next day we went to meeting and talked and ate until it hurt (I got introduced to so many devious things!) and we talked and laughed some more. We watched videos and progressed and slept and put together costumes and CDs and ideas and OH MAN.

Sometimes I worry about this project. You'll read my last few posts and think I'm always depressed and pessimistic. Well, it's my job to be a little pessemistic. But when I'm with her...shes like the moon princess. I feel like everything is possible.and I have great faith that she will make everything alright. I want to make her dreams come true. When I have a moment in the future, in front of a camera, I'll say it again and again in more depth.

But those silly people who laugh at us, or put us down, or see fit to ridicule us for trying this, (and this is for all the Sera Myu groups) I feel sorry for them. They get to sit at home watch as we do amazing things. Girls and guys all over the world will watch us and wish they could be a part of this. We may not hear them or see them, but I was a silent and avid Sailor Moon fan for most of my life and I am a prime example of the kind of fan we are doing this for. Everyone wants to be loved and do something great with our lives. and even if people don't like us and we get booed off the stage and people throw rocks at us, I'm going to have this with me forever. and I'm going to watch our DVD and the preformanced of the other from all over the world with amazment and happinedd that I was a part of it. and if DVD playersare still around when I'm old, my kids and grandkids will have it too. So they will know who I am.

I'm grateful for someone like Aino who puts her whole heart into the things she loves. Everyone can see her light.

Ookina Ai de Motenashite!!!!

Now I know how to get love from all over the world from people I don’t know. All I need to do is play sailor Moon. I’m sure when all the PGSM girls Die, we and our children will mourn them too. And hundreds of thousands of youtubes will be made in my honor using the same footage over and over or with footage no one thought was worth using before. Weird stuff no one cares about until your dead. I’ll be like Emily Dickinson.

Does anyone get that joke?

OK, well, moving on.

Reiterating that this lj is more for undercover work rather than an awesome promotion of how great everything is going in the SCSM world, I have good news and bad news.

Goodnews! I finally finished making and recording the choreography for “What Vain girls came to do” and designing (but not recording) the dance to ‘dream, dreams are big’. We posted the first sneak peek of Evil dream and I’m pleased. I need to hustle and make a nice BIG RED RIBBON. :D

Bad News!
Wow this is hard. My time is stretched so tight and decisions made must be pretty good ones from the get-go. And unfortunately, we don’t know what the hell we’re doing. We learned a lot from the EVIL DREAM shoot. One is, we can’t go in unprepared. That two minute song took 4 hours of shoots and that’s not including setting the whole freaking thing UP and doing the choreography.

Now that we have post it (which I can’t deny I’m excited about) and I’m getting some mixed reviews. And that’s BAD. I won’t go into what they say because frankly, you don’t need to hear them and I don’t wanna spread it around. O.o It just says to me there are some things that need to be majorly changed.

Other than that, keep a hold of our entire cast it like trying to hold water In your arms, you think you have it and then you realize there’s a hole and when you try to fix it, you make a new one some place else. Keep in mind Aino and I are not professionals and we’re making this up as we go. We’re trying to keep things open for inevitable changes but at the moment, that looks more like unpreparedness than clever thinking. And that’s how I’m starting to see it too. If I’d been smart, I would have recorded these dances months ago, but I’ll be honest, I was putting it off because I have limited faith in my ability to do this. Worse- my roommate isn’t helping by shrugging her shoulders every time I tell her this and says, ‘yeah, but you’re the best we have.’ Wow. Thanks for the vote of confidence. If we’d been smart, we’d have figured out the karaoke bits we needed by now and organized a singing day at LEAST a month ago rather than recording as we go. It’s bad enough to only have one shoot a month.

Worst of all worsts, I feel as though we’re about to lose our Neptune and Pluto. I could be wrong but it’s been in my gut for a while. :sigh: perhaps we should have just stuck to the inners?

See, this is our first time trying ANYTHING like this. And we’re really tripping our way through it. And you’ll notice I haven’t even mentioned fuku, wigs, or costumes yet.

I feel like I’m losing my mind and my contacts as deals slip through my forgetful and fearful fingers. I need help. But only help from people I can trust will do a good job and do I have that luxury? Who knows.

This is just me getting some worries off my chest. So don’t worry, I’m sure everything will turn out alright…Vbabe is just REALLY

This is something strange to post about, I'm sure. But my home forum that I've been with for 5+ years is merging with another SM forum. :( I've complained my fill on the boards (which amount to light whining) and I'm trying to show my support on the other forum but really, I'm kinda heartbroken. Genvid was my home! Very mature moonies with weird topics and deep conversations. Not so much 'Whoz better, Darien or Andrew?! BBQ'. uh- yeah. One more poll and I'll puke. I dunno. Genvid was like the 30 and up and this new place is...well younger. Not as immature as some OTHER sm forums around (COUGH COUGH) but still. I liked being able to recognize regular posters and being part of a special 'gang'. :sigh: Oh well. I hope they keep our color scheme and ranking. I worked hard for that!

:sigh:

OK- in SCSM news (which is what I know you're all here for), I've been a busy bee again. :3 although I'll admit Aino and I had to kill some babies. It was a little bit of a slaughter. And I was feeling a bit pessimistic. I hate needing to cut stuff. It makes me feel like the rest of what we’ve got going on is gonna suck. BUT! I can’t get that way! There are so many GREAT balls in the air it would be a shame to drop any of them. So I suppose the thing to do is to really start to puuuuuuushhing forward. Make things happen. Bug people more often. YOSH! C’MON VBABE! ONE TWO, ONE TWO!

…even though I’m going home this weekend. ^^; This weekend I’ll order the boxes for candy shipping. And I’ll price shop for muslin in Sac-town. I’ll pick a day after the next 3 weeks for a ‘dance day’, collect a cute pic from our new artist for the website so we can get THAT rolling again, and pull off (or ask aino for) some MP3s so I can forward them to our senshi. That will give them a sense of connection and responsibility which they *desperately* need.

Beki-chan told me she’d head up AX’s booth which I think we need financially speaking. I gotta finish up one last request for an old friend before I work on a silly little ad for the next interview popping up. And If I’ve pulled the right strings, an interview with Anime Expo! XD WOO! Hardo~Gai des!

These long-term projects are hard to stay focused on and keep up energy for. But then, I guess that’s what I have Aino-chan for. :3

OK- so what I've noticed is- I'm not smart enough to post often! Or reply when the iron is hot. ^^; So I figure since Emi/Mars's journal tend to cover background and fun stuffs, and Aino seems to have that random frequent awesome ness, I'll do as I do best and fade into the bg. XD No no! I won't disappear, I'm just saying don't check here often to see updates- they won't be as often or as fun as everyone else’s. ^^; I'm finding I tend to do the set-up work. Finding peeps to be a part, organizing sponsors, looking up prices, date and making important phone calls and most especially gathering up interviews for our dear dear senshi.

What I gotta do TODAY is gather up all our head shots, Photoshop 'em so they look all pretty, submit them to our main artist and aino to post on the website. After that, I gotta call back Anime Soufflé about next month's presentation and then I have a potential Jadeite interview over the phone. If I still have energy after all that, I do need to pick out a few items from one of our sponsors to be put in product placement some where in the beginning of the movie...hm. Also, I really should announce on my DA page that I'm opening up for art comish again so I can submit all THOSE funds to this project. :) also, I should contact the girl who is doing a GREAT job on the doujin. Aren't you excited?

See why I don't post much? busy busy busy with stuff that's not really cool.

LOL. XD

hoooo~! Hardo-gai des!

no, it's just me Vchan.

Sooo, I finally made it out to Aino's house and I was THRILLED! I got completely LOST when I got there (dumb Gps) but that's another story. Her parents? SO CUTE. They were warm and welcoming and reminded me of very calm Ainos. Plus they feed me and anyone who can do that is #1 in my list. NUMBER ONE. after doing some location scouting and taking a look at a sound stage, (I know! X3) we started work on the final outline. Still have a few kinks to work out but every time Aino and I go over it, not only does it take a few hours, but it also gets clearer and clearer and trust me, with a project this big, a million little things get lost and forgotten and I just know that some day, we will show up on set and realize there is a HUGE plot hole or we need something (or someone) to be there that isn't ...so we'll need to shift the diolouge, set, or plot. I'm glad we are of like minds, I know I can trust her to solve these problems with reason. Its good to know in advance what our problems will be. Or Try to.

But after going over fund raising (you guys are going to LOVE this,)timing, costumes, shoot locations, lighting, drama, scripts, Actors, the orientation B on Wednesday with the rest of our actors and MUCH MUCH MORE------- we settled down to play a Sailor Moon Chibi Video game. It's Japanese you know. No, I mean NONE of it was in English. We spent the first half hour just figuring out what button does what. It was absolutely hilarious. and we just made fun of it and ourselves for a few hours into the night. Really, If you never get the chance to go, Aino-chan's room, is sailor moon Paradise for me. Even her little light switch has a montage of sm fanart! I was in heaven. I couldn't help but pose little with her PGSM toys. I mean HOOO~ SO MUCH FUN! Venus Tambo!

And thats, I think, The point. I'll probably end up saying that a lot but this time it's true. We work hard, which we love to do, but in the end, it's all about loving sm together. It wouldn't be nearly as fun if Aino and I didn't make such good friends. She's so easy to love.
:)

hee hee!!!!

OK so I've had this journal for a good year or two now but it's mostly been a dumping place for my woes and great leaps of the heart (like the time I fell in love-at-first-site with my old roommate's boyfriend ^^ (if you had seen him you would have too.)) But Now I think it's time to put it to good use. Angsty entries are now private and thus begin my log as Official Sailor Venus of the Southern California Sera Myu Project!!

YAY!

Everybody dance with meh! :dance dance:

It's ME with The English voice actor of Gai Senshi in Naruto! He was not at all bashful to have his picture taken with me. I was embarrassed but he made me feel so happy!!!! XD (OH! and btw that's me dressed in all my official Ravenclaw clothes. SQUEE.)

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